(Before I begin...I want you to know that next week is my Blog-iversary!! I'm going to be having giveaways Monday through Friday...and as a hint...Lenny the Lion will be involved! It all begins on Monday! So mark your calendars!)
Now onto me writing out my train of thought...
It's been a rough month for a lot of us. It's funny how things run in waves.
Rough times, problems, challenges...they can throw off our perspective.
And perspective is such a tricky thing.
When we go through hard times, the problem sits directly in front of us. We all know if you put something right in front of your eye, or your face, like an orb for instance, it will block out all the other scenery. The orb/problem takes up your entire view and let's face it, it can be quite depressing.
Worse than that...as we try to see further off in the distance, past the problem...all we see is the same thing...magnified infinitely. The orbs/challenges take over our perspective now...and our perspective of the future.
I call it the infinite perspective. Here is a crude drawing of my take on this:
When problems arise, tunnel vision takes over. Our problems take over every aspect of our lives, and the future seems to hold no change. We look straight ahead of us and see "same." We can't see any change for the better. It is impossibly infuriating.
But here is the thing. Life doesn't take us in a straight line.
Looking straight in front of us, trying to imagine a future amongst our challenges is fruitless, as life hands us multiple twists and turns. There are corners to turn all down our line of sight...they just aren't visible past the orbs.
Challenges are not infinite.
We turn...and one perspective is gone. When we turn, In front of us is a new perspective...and a new horizon is born.
The problem remains though...how do we turn the corner to change the crappy perspective that may be in front of us right now?
Sometimes we can WILL a change. But unfortunately, sometimes life has a way of making us wait for that turn in the road. Sometimes we are forced on the hard road, looking our challenges square in the eye, for months...or even years.
I think our strength lies in expecting that eventual turn. HOPING for change is one of our biggest assets.
HOPE is huge. A lot of people get caught on the fact that hope is out of our hands. "I hope tomorrow is better." "I hope I get that package today." "I hope my husband will surprise me with a night out."
But real hope doesn't work that way...(as I was reminded by a friend on Sunday.) Hope is an active word. It is actively expecting change. It is actively expecting a better day. It is even actively working for a better day. It is knowing that the orb in front of us will not be there forever. Life changes. Perspectives can change with the winds, and the importance lies in not letting the problems in front of us make us give up hope on tomorrow.
Because tomorrow that turn can come.
Because bad days...or months...or years...do not last forever.
Your child's basal rates will not be wonky forever.
One day YOU WILL bolus correctly for pizza.
One day the pump will be oked by your insurance.
One day you won't have to weigh every ounce of food, you WILL swag.
One day your child's numbers will smooth overnight.
One day you will conquer after breakfast highs.
One day you will trust your child's sets again.
One day...you will feel at peace with all this.
Maybe not today....maybe not tomorrow...
But don't let that problem you are facing now...magnify to forever.
And don't let the challenges you face seem insurmountable just because they look huge sitting right in front of your face. The fact is, they are usually not as giant as they seem...or maybe not as forever as they seem.
Yes, enduring is part of life, but the things that weigh heavy on our hearts now...won't weigh there forever.
Even if there is never a cure. You will turn the corner one day and see all of this in a different light.
Hope for that change.
It will come.
Right? I'm talking to me, as much as I am talking to you...